Wednesday, January 25, 2012

a brand new day

Today (or sometime in the wee hours of the morning tomorrow) I will be a grandmother.

Quite frankly, I'm still not sure how I feel about this...I'm not OLD enough to be a grandma.  My daughter is not old enough to be a mother for that matter - I just brought her home from the hospital a few months ago!  Ok, its been nearly 23 years but it seems like yesterday at times.

And wrapped up in all of this is my own angst, I don't know what a grandmother looks like.   My own mom died long before I had children - and I don't know what to do.  What if I mess things up?  What if the world that I am part of isn't good enough for my grand son?  What if I can't protect him from the hurts and pains of life?

Deep breath...ready or not there will be a new addition to the family in the next 24 hours.  A little baby boy who already has a name:  Zayden Michael.

Welcome to the world Zayden Michael Loonsfoot.  I can't make a whole lot of promises other than I will love you lots - and give you a cookie whenever you want one - cause I think that's what grandmas are supposed to do.

Peace, hope and joy,
Deborah aka 'grandma'


  1. So thrilled for you and your family! God's blessings on you all!

  2. You will be a most wonderful grandmother just as you have been a mother, wife, friend, and Christian. You have so much love to give and I feel Zayden is just the latest to receive your wonderful gift. I love you for who you are and what you helped me to be.